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I am a total narcissist... and I love it.
Posted on Oct 27th, 2008
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ch3shyr3_cat
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I was just going over Di's Blog about narcissism...
I am a narcissist, is it wrong that I don't see this as a bad thing?
My whole family.. if there is one thing we have in common.. just one.. it is that we all think we are the best, the prettiest, the smartest. We all feel the need to pass judgement on each other.. so I must ask.. Is my narcissism hereditary?
Probably not, but I do believe I've learned it from them but not only them.. it's part of me. I am as vain as vain can be. I would drown trying to kiss myself if mirrors did not exsist. I LOVE me.. I love the way I talk, I love the way I act, write,draw,laugh, smile, I even love how I cry. I love almost everything about me. I want other people to LOVE me. Is this wrong? I don't let it get in the way of my life. I don't let it reign over the things that need bettering or changing.
I don't think it's wrong to be in love with yourself or like attention. I just think it is reason to worry if I was clouded, craved attention and not accept the fact that I am not perfect.
I think my biggest flaw is that I have high expectations for people because I want them to feel what I feel and this is where the fact that everyone is where they are ment to be in that exact moment and it is NOT my place to force what is working for me on them. But I never boasted perfection.. just narcissim.. and does narcissism not stem from insecurity. I know it does for me. I feel the need to love myself because I fear no one else will.
I could be wrong about all of this.. My narcissistic brain could making up excuses.
My sister says to me all the time, "I'm not concieted I'm convinced." I think that is about true on my part as well.. it's only a matter of time you start believing what people tell you over and over.. if its positive or negative.
So in following Di's example, this is me, I want you to love me like I love me, see what I see feel what I feel because I love it so much. I want you to judge me and make sure you understand just what you are getting when you become a friend of mine. And again... because I am who I am... and thats all that I am.. for now.. but as always.. I'm working on it.
I <3me.... i mean you :P
Narcissistically yours,
Ashley
(P.s. I'm going to read this 5 times the first two to make sure I like what I'm reading and the next three because.. well.. My vanity is my vainity is my vainity :p )
I am a narcissist, is it wrong that I don't see this as a bad thing?
My whole family.. if there is one thing we have in common.. just one.. it is that we all think we are the best, the prettiest, the smartest. We all feel the need to pass judgement on each other.. so I must ask.. Is my narcissism hereditary?
Probably not, but I do believe I've learned it from them but not only them.. it's part of me. I am as vain as vain can be. I would drown trying to kiss myself if mirrors did not exsist. I LOVE me.. I love the way I talk, I love the way I act, write,draw,laugh, smile, I even love how I cry. I love almost everything about me. I want other people to LOVE me. Is this wrong? I don't let it get in the way of my life. I don't let it reign over the things that need bettering or changing.
I don't think it's wrong to be in love with yourself or like attention. I just think it is reason to worry if I was clouded, craved attention and not accept the fact that I am not perfect.
I think my biggest flaw is that I have high expectations for people because I want them to feel what I feel and this is where the fact that everyone is where they are ment to be in that exact moment and it is NOT my place to force what is working for me on them. But I never boasted perfection.. just narcissim.. and does narcissism not stem from insecurity. I know it does for me. I feel the need to love myself because I fear no one else will.
I could be wrong about all of this.. My narcissistic brain could making up excuses.
My sister says to me all the time, "I'm not concieted I'm convinced." I think that is about true on my part as well.. it's only a matter of time you start believing what people tell you over and over.. if its positive or negative.
So in following Di's example, this is me, I want you to love me like I love me, see what I see feel what I feel because I love it so much. I want you to judge me and make sure you understand just what you are getting when you become a friend of mine. And again... because I am who I am... and thats all that I am.. for now.. but as always.. I'm working on it.
I <3
Narcissistically yours,
Ashley
(P.s. I'm going to read this 5 times the first two to make sure I like what I'm reading and the next three because.. well.. My vanity is my vainity is my vainity :p )
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You a narcissist? I've got to change my drugs…
Cannot think, I'm giggling to hard!
You sweet thing… not possible:)
:P exactly the mood I was going for.. and I lied.. I read it seven times.. and still love it.
<3<3<3
cute…you captured another piece of art here. You write as well as draw and are a loved artist in my view… :-)
” I would drown trying to kiss myself if mirrors did not exsist.” that is the best line ever! I loved it… I read THAT over about 7 times and still loved it ;)
I think that what your talking about isn't necessarily narcissim, but self-confidence, and a love for yourself. Infact, I'm just beginnign to accept myself, and I think it's a key part of growing up and being able to making relationships. How can you want other people to love you, if you don't love yourself??
Anyways, I'll be sending you a message later… since I think we rather enjoy our conversations, hope your afternoon is splendid!
=] Ash
p.s. okay so I just FINISHED reading it… the upper part of this comment was when I was about half way through and I also like this line: “I feel the need to love myself because I fear no one else will” Wow… I can COMPLETELY relate to that one. I've always been able to get attention, but never from the people I REALLY want attention from. But anyways, although I still have that problem, I just tell myself that I love me, and if no one else ends up loving me the way I love me that everything will still be okay, but then again, how could someone NOT love me? I'm amazing.. and i just have to wait for the right peopel to figure it out and enter into my life!
Anyways… long comment, but I think you'll enjoy! ha ha!
=] Ash
I'm eagerly expecting it Ash! I think you and I are alot alike!
Untill our next conversation!
many blessings,
Ashley