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August 2009 
Silly Girl, Stop trying to save the world.
ch3shyr3_cat
Negativity.
It's all around us. There are two things we can choose to do with it.
Succumb or ignore.
Since my epiphany, revelation what have you, I've come to terms with many negative forces. I am sad to admit that one of the most detrimental forces is some one in my own family. I am sad to call her that because she is the head of the family but it's true.
One of the most defeating sentances anyone can say to you contains the words. You can't. You can't has been a catalyst for many peoples dreams coming true. You can choose to believe You Can't or choose to prove the neigh-sayer wrong.
But what about "I won't let you" What about trying to make a difference, and the people around you are just refusing to give you the slightest bit of leverage to do what you think is right.
I can't do anything extra special right now. I can't give to Kiva or any micro-loaning agencies. I can't lend a helping hand to the disaster victems in Mumbai or help stop the Cholera outbreak in Zimbabwe. I am not able to do these things because my financial and educational situation will not allow it.
I can, however, recycle, donate food to food drives, volunteer my time, petition for a better world, learn to keep myself healthy spiritually, mentally and physically, and be the change I want.
How is it that I let some one make me feel bad about doing this. How can some one who is my family try to make me feel like everything I do is for nothing.
This is my baracade. This woman who is to blind to see that her grandaughter wants to better the place that she left in shambles. That her own daughter is at least making an effort to do the same for this generation. Why can't she?
What do I do?
How can I help this.
Giving up is not an option.. I stand by my great mother Gaia.
I've laughed in the face of my adversity. What do I do when my adversity laughs back? 
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Dear Ashley, what a heart-felt blog. I have no doubt that one who can ask such questions and overcome such odds, can also find the way out.
It’s like a labyrinth, and then you realize the thread of light was with you all along; and all you have to do, is allow it to lead you out!
Of course, it also helps to rise up and see the labyrinth from a height; the new perspective can change the way you look at adversity.
Sending light for the process.
Thanks so much Meenakshi
Ashley,
You are so right! You can’t give up. You have to do what you love and what you think is going to be best for you and the people around you. A member of my family sometimes holds me back as well. I have learned not to ignore the negativity but to accept it, and by doing so accepting her as a person that I do not agree with.
This situation probably doesn’t have a lot to do with yours, but it sparked in my mind while reading your blog. You are such an amazing person! You are doing so much to help the world and are indeed making a difference, if small. There is no doubt in my mind that as soon as your financial situation improves that you will have a huge impact on the Earth! Keep on keepin’ on!
<3 Elise
Elise!
Thank you for your inspirational words! They are such a comfort to me!!!
Much love,
Ashley
you’re beautiful, I love your fiery spirit. keep on being the wonderful person you are no matter what, and you will go on changing the world the best way - your way. hugs!