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August 2009 
What is the most difficult thing about your spiritual path?
Posted on Jan 27th, 2009
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ch3shyr3_cat
ch3shyr3_cat
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for January 27, 2009:
I am the Highway
The most difficult part of my spiritual path is trusting myself to understand that everything I feel and see and connect is ment to be that way.
The most difficult part of my spiritual path is trusting these eyes and these ears and these thoughts and these feelings.
Having suffered from Borederline personality disorder. (or so they told me) my grasp on reality was off. Or different. Which is not nessecarily a bad thing.. But when your 17 and all you want to do is think like every one else but you obviously stick out like a sore thumb.. it's really hard to accept.
It's interesting to look back on me.. and oddball pretending to be normal pretending to be an oddball.
Im retrospect my spiritual journey had had alot of twists and turnes. from one god to the next. from one deity to the other. Which one is the right one?
Who is more correct. Who should I believe?
I guess the hardest part about my spiritual path is believing me.
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I don’t give much credence to what “they” say anymore – as “they” are out
to make money off you being sick and if they say your un-sick “they” can’t make
much money…
Borederline personality disorder seems like a good reason for someone to stay hooked on meds for the rest of there lives if you listened to “they”
I think listening to your gut is the best thing you can do –
You are the source of everything anyway :-)
I agree with NF partly–you must listen to your brain–mind–consciousness.
If you have listened to an Incubus album for example(Make Yourself) they sing about this whole idea that many teenagers go through–everyone goes through actually–I am not an ageist(ageism-age discrimination–I think age is just a number) They sing that we cannot accept false philosophies that are sold to us at a steal–as if the doctor has any real idea of who you actually are. Only you can find that out–and you must be able to look in the mirror and see yourself truly—be true to yourself–to thine own self be true–Know thy self and then you can make yourself.
I have, like you, tried worshiping many god’s and have come to the conclusion that religion does not matter, it does not matter which god you choose, you must first realize that there is a powerful consciousness inside of you that you use without any mystical or apotehosized help–in that you do it by choice – not by guidance from outside sources. It is in the power of your mind to figure out who you are, what you want to do, why, and then you can define yourself. You needn’t not simply believe in yourself, you must know yourself.
I stay away from doctors as they tried to diagnose me with severe depression when I was sixteen–but I was much smarter—I took no medication, I was simply sad from a recent break up—but I decided to be happy and here I am–a smart, happy man with dreams and goals I am working towards–without any chemical dependencies–except of course those I metabolize.
To think for oneself–that is a true “god-like” power that we can achieve.
The center of the universe is wherever there is consciousness.
I would like to correct my previous statement –
“They” is very generalizing. There are very good Physicians out there that do not believe in this type of behavior– if you search through my blogs you will find that it’s physicians speaking out against this and not the average lay person. I was generalizing in that previous statement and that is unfair to the those fighting the good fight. I have much respect for those fighting the good fight.