Black Holes and Revelations

I've been away from gaia for a while.

My little status has said that my last login is at least once a day, but mentally, spiritually I've been away from gaia for a good long while,

I've made some amazing friends while sailing this beautiful ship with you beautiful souls. Each and everyone of you has contributed to my own growth as a person.

You've given me some sort of understanding of myself and of you. You have let me into your lives.

I wanted to write this blog as a sort of way to let you know that I have NOT forgotton about you all, not forgotton about this amazing community.

It's my belief that there are different cycles a person must go through in their life. A "5 steps forward 3 steps back" sort of deal.

Where great personal growth comes but only for us to be brought back to the reason we needed that personal growth and to face it.

I posted the song above for many reasons. I hope you'll listen.

We all go through our own black holes and revelations. The dark before the light before the dark.

Our black holes aren't always as intimidating and as bad as they sound. It's just unfamiliar territory.. or all to familiar and ready to be understood. A black hole is only a black hole because we cannot see it enough as anything else. The revelation comes at the end.

Through my small (and interestingly enough fun) black hole, I've come to realize that these revelations as small or as epic as they can seem are just another entrance to a black hole.

I remember just a few monthes ago I was so spirtually sound in my beliefs. It's the moment that I was so comfortable.. that the peices began to fall away. I knew they fit but I watched the come apart. I tried to hold them togather.. but then I wondered..

Maybe I'm not supposed to hold them togather. Everytime my mountain crumbles,  it leaves behind in it's ashes the birth of something new.

The birth of something that, even though it is less extravagent as the mountain I climbed, is something that I needed to take with me after that amazing climb to the top. 

It's the hatchling from the ashes of the burning phoenix, the birth of something new and amazing. And when it becomes old and stagnant, it to will become a whirlwind of a black hole, and then the perfect moment of a revelation.

I wanted to thank Andrew. My dear Andrew for unknowingly helping me in my latest revelation. For reminding where I am.. where I stand.