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August 2009 
Autumn turns the tide.
Posted on Aug 10th, 2009
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ch3shyr3_cat
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Hmm.. I really haven't written a blog in a long time. I haven't actually participated in much online activity in a while. (when you have to go outside to you use your internet connection in 90 something to degree weather.. it's not as much fun as it used to be)
Anyway...
Autumn is in the air. I can feel it in my soul. That's the only way I can describe the feeling that autumn is on its way. If there is any season I am most connected to it is summer... I almost love it more than spring. Autumn and spring are the seasons in which the most things happen to me. Not only does semesters start in each of these seasons but the great infinate turns the wheel yet again.
I love autumn because It's so unpredictable.. it's predictable. Everything that has happened that is life altering for the upcoming year happens in autumn.. it's almost a sort of storm of life.
My sister moved back in with us. She's been having some serious issues with life and death and continuing on her path. She no longer gets away with the carelessness that she used to now that her children are becoming more aware of the world around them.
But to my great happiness I witness her turn of tide. I saw the light spark back in her daughters eye. I saw the light spark back in hers. It made me feel so.. happy to see her adjusting so well to the town she always desperately wanted to leave. I hope she see's that running away isn't the answer. I hope that I understand it too. :)
To be continued.
Anyway...
Autumn is in the air. I can feel it in my soul. That's the only way I can describe the feeling that autumn is on its way. If there is any season I am most connected to it is summer... I almost love it more than spring. Autumn and spring are the seasons in which the most things happen to me. Not only does semesters start in each of these seasons but the great infinate turns the wheel yet again.
I love autumn because It's so unpredictable.. it's predictable. Everything that has happened that is life altering for the upcoming year happens in autumn.. it's almost a sort of storm of life.
My sister moved back in with us. She's been having some serious issues with life and death and continuing on her path. She no longer gets away with the carelessness that she used to now that her children are becoming more aware of the world around them.
But to my great happiness I witness her turn of tide. I saw the light spark back in her daughters eye. I saw the light spark back in hers. It made me feel so.. happy to see her adjusting so well to the town she always desperately wanted to leave. I hope she see's that running away isn't the answer. I hope that I understand it too. :)
To be continued.
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I saw the light spark back in her daughters eye. I saw the light spark back in hers.
Blessed words. Thanks for sharing, Ashley.
Thank you for the kind words. I was to young to see the day my sisters light left.. but I remember vividly the day my neices did. I remember the anger that I see in my sisters eyes every day.. the anger I saw in my own. It warmed my very being to see them come togather again and laugh and love each other openly and with out sarcasm and anger. Compromise to understand that neither is perfect and we must love. I hope that can continue.. I hope that the light comes back to my nephew who is too loosing the flame with every problem he does not understand yet. I give everything I can to those children.. ever ounce of my being to their well being. I would give my own self to see them happy. And when I do(see them happy) .. the world is a place with even more beauty and wonder. :)
As you stay in your light, you'll be a beacon for them to look at, whenever they're lost. With your love, you'll keep them close, but don't give your own self up, dear Ashley.